20. Moving On | 乗り換えて

Moving On


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Time moves forward whether we want it to or not. The problem is that sometimes, our minds don’t move along with it. We stay stuck in the past, replaying memories, reliving conversations, and clutching onto the more precious of moments, not letting them go. When something was impactful, a relationship, a period of life, a certain summer program, letting go feels painful. We tell ourselves that maybe, if we hold on tightly enough, we can somehow keep it alive. But it’s impossible. The present keeps arriving, and the past keeps becoming more distant.

Weight

It’s easy to underestimate the weight you feel from staying in the past. These old memories can be comforting, but they can also be surprisingly alluring. When we dwell too much on what’s already happened, we start to miss what’s right in front of us. New opportunities, new experiences, new memories we could form, they could all pass us by.

But there’s nothing wrong with wanting to remember our past experiences. The past shapes us, and some of our memories are worth cherishing. But when they become too heavy to carry, we start to sink. And sometimes, the most reasonable thing we can do for ourselves is to stop asking “What if things had stayed the same?” and start wondering “What could happen if I move forward?”

Shifting

Moving on doesn’t mean ignoring the past or trying to forget. Moving on is allowing the past to exist without it obstructing your present. Moving on is living without the desire to relive what is already bygone. Moving on is letting a memory bring warmth rather than ache. Time will move on no matter what. The question is whether we’ll let ourselves move with it by choosing to live in a way that makes the present or even the future just as valuable as the past. Because if we don’t, we may become trapped in moments that no longer exist while life continues without us.

And maybe, moving on is less about leaving something behind and more about bringing yourself forward. Maybe, in due time, you’ll look back at your current future the same way you look at your current past.

Life Update!

School starts too soon. HCSSiM ended too soon. Everything seems to be happening so quickly. And the exigence of this post, if it wasn’t obvious enough, was the conclusion of HCSSiM. The people I met were genuinely amazing, I improved quite a bit, not just my problem-solving skills or my knowledge on topology and group theory, but also as a person. But reminiscing too much is pointless; the future awaits. We’ll just see what happens.


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